I Don't Want To Grow Up!

Recently my boyfriend and I have been talking about living together and in 3 weeks time we're hopefully going to do just that! I'll finally be flying the nest and moving into the big, bad world of adulthood, and it's scaring the living day lights out of me.

How do I know if I'm ready to grow up? I mean, I want nothing more in the world than to live with my lovely boyfriend, but I'm so used to having everything done for me, being wrapped up in bubble wrap and not having to worry about where my next meal is coming from. I can imagine no-one ever wants to leave that stage of their life, but it's inevitable, I know that, so the sooner I do it, the better right? I hope so.

Results day is fast approaching, and I'm shitting bricks. The 16th of this month is D-day, I will find out if I will be attending university, or weather I'll be working in Greggs The Bakers for the rest of my life. Lord give me strength.

I'm on the verge of a breakdown just thinking about it all. There will be no more lazy days of doing nothing but lying in the sun and reading. It'll all be cleaning, studying, cooking, studying, paying bills and a bit more studying. How do people do it? It seems all too much already, and I'm still living the cushy lifestyle of my pink bed room, with pillows and teddies and my meals being made for me by my Dad and Step-mum.

Time to put my big girl pants on and make the move.

Don't you just hate it when people twist what you say?

Okay, so heres the thing, myself and some friends were having a discusion about another friend's boyfriend. You see, I dislike him, mainly because of the way he treats me and others. He always acts like he's better than everyone else. He always treats me differently to the others, and he has this inexplainable problem with me, even he can't explain it. So yeah, myself and friends were talking about this, also about the way he treats his girl friend. They're happy together, but he's not fair on her, and I don't know wether she realises this but he's always dragging her away from us.

There have been times where I've thought, 'I'm going to say something, to both of them.' but then I don't because of two reasons:
1) He'll blow up at me-don't get me wrong, I don't really care what he thinks about me, but I still don't want to get in an argument with him
and
2) She'll not listen, or she'll listen then go in a huff with me and not talk to me, or she'll tell him and then they'll argue and then he'll get on to me and blame everything on me like he always does and call me hurtful names, same as above really.

So anyway, there was this boy with us at the time (lets call him he2) who is friends with him, so we told him2 not to tell him1 anything, so what does he2 go and do? He2 went and told someone else who told him1. confused yet? Yeah, it confused me too. So now, Him1 told his girlfriend that we all hate him, I don't hate him, I just dislike him sometimes because of reasons explained in the first paragraph.

Help anyone?
I've explained to my friend the situation and that I don't hate her boyfriend, but she's off school and hasn't emailed back, so you know, I'm gonna have to sit here and wonder 'Whats next?'