Well, happy new year to you :D

It's been a while hasn't it? I guess my mind has been blank for longer than I thought, but I've thought of something to write!

a short while ago I looked at my thumb and it reminded me of something that I thought was long forgotten. I asked a friend if her thumb had ever reminded her of something, she said no but her foot had. So I felt slight less insane.

I thought I would forget soon enough what I was reminded of, I really thought it would be for the best, but I didn't forget, and I still havn't fogotten.

Lying in bed crying, I thought I would do anything to forget, but thinking about it now, maybe It's best not to forget. Learn from your misktakes and everthing right?

Sometimes you percieve things wrong. I thought I was going through the worst time of my life and then I remembered my past and thought
"You know what? I'm strong than this."
I dried my eyes and listened to my iPod remembering everything I once thought I wanted to forget. I've realised that no matter how crappy things might seem, you should always be able to look back, and think, 'I did it, I moved past it'.

Waking up in the morning I went about my normal routine, and yeah, I might have seemed a bit haunted in a way, but I was just pleased that I was strong enough to get on with life, instead of letting it stop me in my tracks and spoil my life.

My Feet Keep Taking Me To Your Street Because Theres A Chance I'll Meet You

Okay, so not literally, but my thoughts keep taking me to a specific subject.
Read my blogs much? Then you'll know exactly what thought I'm talking about.
No? Okay, I'll clue you in, A certain tall, bluey-green eyed boy that I broke up with a few months ago. Yeah, I know what you're thinking, GET OVER HIM ALREADY!!!! But it's harder than I thought it would be.
I keep remembering every moment we shared and all the funny things that happened around us, like the mini chavs that asked if we had sex...

me: *chokes* no!
Person G: *blushes* .....
mini chavs: are you sure??
me+Person G: *nods*
mini chavs: ahh okay *leaves*
Person G: Oh..My..God...
me: *dies*
Persons : *kisses me*
mini chavs: *From behind bush* GET A ROOM!

or the time we got attacked by a dog in the park, the same day he through his shoes in the stream because of blisters.
or the time that old man came up to us in the park and asked us to open his bottel...which he didn't have with his imagionary dog... i felt awful for him.

oh shut up me.
I never used to know how to describe how I felt for him untill I heard this Panic! song and one of the lines just sums it up
I don't love you, I'm just passing the time.
It's like, I know I don't love him anymore, but when I'm sitting around and thinking, my thoughts land on him, and It's mainly just passing the time by thinking about him.
Weird? Yeah, I thought so too, but mehh...
It's really hard, but I am trying. Really really trying my best, but just, ARGH!

No one told me it was this hard ):