I REALLY NEED TO STOP DOING THAT

I promise myself that I'm going to blog regually...and then I don't, and then I dissapoint myself ):
silly me
So yeah, how's things fellow bloggers?? I have to tell you, things aren't so great here, but I'm not going to mope about because that never ever gets me anywhere, and I always annoy myself (and others) when I mope.
Instead I will play hours and hours of just dance, because as I found out yesterday, by tiring myself out with physical exercise like dancing like a loonie for hourrrrrrrrrrs I tend to forget what I'm supposed to moping about, untill I go to bed and then I remember, but then I end up worrying myself to sleep, and the next morning I'm too tired to care about anything (:

Can I ask, what do you do to chill yourself out or forget things??
Also, this blog has a special shout out for my good friend Grace, She did something very nice today and it made me smile alot and feel a bit better about what I was moping about (They don't have just dance in school so I couldn't dance myself into a coma). Grace came up to me, hugged me, and gave me a big bar of chocolate, the only thing that was missing was her bed (Don't get the wrong idea, I tend to sleep at Grace's house alot and I have adopted her bed because it's just so damn comfortable) and her iTunes. Then she made me talk about it, and that was good also, because I hadn't really spoke to anyone about it, aside from Lou Lou but then we were outside so I couldn't really break down and tell her everything, and Lou Lou doesn't handle crying very well :P no offence Lou Lou (:

anyway...what are your plans for the rest of this week my dearies??

ttfn mes amis
xx

"Who's Kenny and what did he do?"

Theres this huge piece of graffiti in the town, it's pretty amazing but theres someone spray painted a kinda post-it-note on it that says "Cheers Kenny". So I says to Gracie "I want to know who Kenny is and what he did...".

Anyway, there isn't much point of this blog, just wanted to tell the world about my day, so lets work backwards shall we? We'll start from what's happening now. I'm being mind raped...
Grace is reading children's poetry, I feel like my ears are being man-handeled and my mind is being forced against it's will comprehend. It's hell!! GAH, SHUT UP GRACIE, YES, I KNOW YOU KNOW THAT I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU, SHUSH!! GAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

So...
trying so hard to move past the mind rape...
Myself and friends went to see Cirque du Freak:The Vampire's assistant today. It was rather good, but it got me thinking, how weird is it that something rather small can cause a large chain of events to start. Like this Steve gadgy, he agravated that pretty spider, so she bit him and sent him into a coma, and being such a loyle friend that Derren was (oohh, the mind rape is over!! yeyyyyyyy!!!!) he sacrafised his mortal life. Steve recovered and figured out that Derren was a vampire and he wasn't happy so he join the bad vampires and there was a big fight near the end. So yeah, that was good. According to Gracie, our friend, RL didn't stop texting her boyfriend for the duration of the film, which didn't surprise me at all because whenever we go to the cinema with her nower days all she does is text all the way through the movie, and it seemed to me that her phone was surgicly attactched to her hand anyway.

So moving on,

If I had a thousand pounds I could have quite easily spent it all in the town on clothes, starbucks and the cinema, but unfortuntly I don't have a thousand pounds.
I want to talk move onto the main subject of this blog which is friendship.

We were walking down the street by the university when I noiced that our little group of friends are totally different to each other, I mean anyone could tell just by looking at us.

Amy was wearing black skinnies, a black tee, a purple hoody, back combed hair and loads of black eye makeup.

Rachel was wearing blue shorts, purple tights and a grey hoodie, n0t much makeup and natural hair.

Shannon was wearing short shorts, a torqoise tee and grey tanktop and a black jacket and carfully styled hair.

I was wearing grey jeans, a black tanktop, a green cardigan, a pearl necklace and my hair tied up.

Aswell as looking totally different, we have total assparations in life. I can't stand the thought of staying in sunderland for the rest of my life, I want to move to scotland and teach whereas Rachel can't stand the thought of moving away, and she wan't to stay close to home for as long as she lives. It's our differences that make us great. But just because we have many differences doesn't mean we don't have similarities. I mean aside from Shanny, we pretty much all share the same great taste in music, and we share similiar hobbies.

All I can say is that were all amazing and even if we do lose contact when we go to collage, we'll always have those amazing memories that will never ever be forgotten.

As I'm Pacing The Pues In A Church Corridoor (:

Mother of mine is in the wedding swing of things now. It's not really as if she's getting married soon, its still a few years away to be fair. But anyway, it's rather fun helping planning a wedding, which is what I'm doing. I'm the only person who has seen my mother in her dress, I'm designing my own dress (which has to be pink, not sure to rejoyce or cry) and (!!!!) I've just wrote her vows for her.

You see, I've always been into poetry and stuff like that and I can spin loads of words of, wether they be poetry, lyrics or just random words, and make them sound pretty. Unfortuntly I don't have premission off my mother to put them up here yet (its my work "/) but I guess its because she wants to keep them quite for a while so my step-father to be won't catch wind of them, which would be naff, and I wouldn't be surprised if Andy asks me to write his vows, so like LOL!

But anyway, all this talk about weddings has been making me feel very wedding-ly. However, I have more pressing matters to talk about than my wedding (which probably won't happen for a few decades yet)

I basicly want to talk about talking. That sounds odd doesn't it?

Well yeah, you see, one of my close friends nearly give me a heart falure today when she suddenly broke down and started crying. You see, she really doesn't have alot of self-asteam, I mean, she's really pretty, smart and funny, but sometimes she doesn't see this in herself. And to add to her low self-asteam, she lately told a lad she likes him and he hasn't bothered to talk to her about it, which she really shouldn't worry about, because I personally think that any guy would be flattered to be told that, and any guy would be totally lucky to have my friend.

She doesn't really like being centre of attenetion so she doesn't tend to talk about her feelings alot, and I think that botteling up her feelings like she does lead to her break down today.

I'm also talking from self experience here, I know that my friends have had to deal with my random break downs on many occasions when I havn't talked about feeling down and things upsetting me. You see, this is why I love blogging, because you can talk about all your feelings and no-one really has the right to judge you, and its such an easy way to get things off your chest. So, here are some random but helpful tips for when your feeling down, lonely, or you just need a chat.

Write it down

Wether it be in your diary, an email or letter (you don't need to send it, just like I never sent my letter to mark) or in a blog, write down how you feel. Its a simple, easy way of talking about things without having to open your mouth and worry about they way things sound.

Read up on it.

Sometimes, I find, that reading real life stories about the way you feel can really help beacause it shows you that you're not alone in the way your feeling. Websites such as Slink ( www.bbc.co.uk/slink ) can really help because you get to know how other people beat the way they felt and how they made themselves feel better and what helped

and most importantly...

Talk about it.

Talking to your close, trusted friends or members of your family that you know will listen is one of the easiest things to do isn't it? We do it everyday, so what the big deal about telling them your problems? Maybe it because your embrassed about your problems or you just don't feel confident in talking about it, but you know, your close friends and family will never judge you if you go to them with your problems, if anything they'll be proud that you have the courage to talk about it, and they can help you, you never know, you might find something out about them that you didn't know before and it might really open your eyes.

So talk about it people, its the best thing to do (:

Happy Blogging (:

x

I'll Always Be A Rock'n'Roll Nerd (:

Wouldn't mind a bit of Tim Minchin like (:
He is simply gorgeous, funny and talented at singing and paino. Perfect (:
And he so different too, he doesn't do typical stand up, he plays music and sings his song, which always make me laugh. My absulute favourite is "10 Foot Cock And A Few Hundered Virgins" and "Rock'n'Roll Nerd".
And he wears no shoes on stage either, which also makes him different.
Oh, I also love "So F**king Rock" aswell, I know all the actions now (: eeeh good times.
I have two people to thank for my Tim Minchin addiction and that would be two of my best friends Lana http://lanaslittlelife.blogspot.com/ and Grace http://spreadingtheloveandbloggingwithstyle.blogspot.com/ . So Thanks, Lana for introducing me to this amazing man because lets face it, you, Tim and rock and roll nerds are simply awesome (:
And Thanks so much Gracie for putting up with me through my though times and inviting me to yours so we can park our arses infront of your massive TV and watch Tim over and over again.
You two are the best (:

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