As I'm Pacing The Pues In A Church Corridoor (:

Mother of mine is in the wedding swing of things now. It's not really as if she's getting married soon, its still a few years away to be fair. But anyway, it's rather fun helping planning a wedding, which is what I'm doing. I'm the only person who has seen my mother in her dress, I'm designing my own dress (which has to be pink, not sure to rejoyce or cry) and (!!!!) I've just wrote her vows for her.

You see, I've always been into poetry and stuff like that and I can spin loads of words of, wether they be poetry, lyrics or just random words, and make them sound pretty. Unfortuntly I don't have premission off my mother to put them up here yet (its my work "/) but I guess its because she wants to keep them quite for a while so my step-father to be won't catch wind of them, which would be naff, and I wouldn't be surprised if Andy asks me to write his vows, so like LOL!

But anyway, all this talk about weddings has been making me feel very wedding-ly. However, I have more pressing matters to talk about than my wedding (which probably won't happen for a few decades yet)

I basicly want to talk about talking. That sounds odd doesn't it?

Well yeah, you see, one of my close friends nearly give me a heart falure today when she suddenly broke down and started crying. You see, she really doesn't have alot of self-asteam, I mean, she's really pretty, smart and funny, but sometimes she doesn't see this in herself. And to add to her low self-asteam, she lately told a lad she likes him and he hasn't bothered to talk to her about it, which she really shouldn't worry about, because I personally think that any guy would be flattered to be told that, and any guy would be totally lucky to have my friend.

She doesn't really like being centre of attenetion so she doesn't tend to talk about her feelings alot, and I think that botteling up her feelings like she does lead to her break down today.

I'm also talking from self experience here, I know that my friends have had to deal with my random break downs on many occasions when I havn't talked about feeling down and things upsetting me. You see, this is why I love blogging, because you can talk about all your feelings and no-one really has the right to judge you, and its such an easy way to get things off your chest. So, here are some random but helpful tips for when your feeling down, lonely, or you just need a chat.

Write it down

Wether it be in your diary, an email or letter (you don't need to send it, just like I never sent my letter to mark) or in a blog, write down how you feel. Its a simple, easy way of talking about things without having to open your mouth and worry about they way things sound.

Read up on it.

Sometimes, I find, that reading real life stories about the way you feel can really help beacause it shows you that you're not alone in the way your feeling. Websites such as Slink ( www.bbc.co.uk/slink ) can really help because you get to know how other people beat the way they felt and how they made themselves feel better and what helped

and most importantly...

Talk about it.

Talking to your close, trusted friends or members of your family that you know will listen is one of the easiest things to do isn't it? We do it everyday, so what the big deal about telling them your problems? Maybe it because your embrassed about your problems or you just don't feel confident in talking about it, but you know, your close friends and family will never judge you if you go to them with your problems, if anything they'll be proud that you have the courage to talk about it, and they can help you, you never know, you might find something out about them that you didn't know before and it might really open your eyes.

So talk about it people, its the best thing to do (:

Happy Blogging (:

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