She's back and there's a moral to the story...sort of

Being a teenager is never easy, I'm pretty sure everyone would agree. With so many raging hormones and every little problem being a disaster, many teenagers think that they have the worst life ever. With coming to nearly the end of my teenage years, I've realised that every little thing that I've been through as been a learning experience. I mean, everyone has a bit of drama in their life, without it we would be sitting around bored off our tits, twiddling our thumbs wondering when we're ever going to get off our backsides and do something. With every episode of our real life dramas in our teenage years, we can learn and grow into the adults that we want to become.

 I know better than anyone that we take our parents for granted, and even after realising this, I still do it, but I know that I'm going to shape my life and the person that I am around the big old people I've watched over the years. We can decide what traits we want to take on, and the ones we could live without. We can grow up and have kids and decided how to bring them up, whether we'll copy what our parents did or try a whole new technique.

 I know that this all sounds very melodramatic coming from and 18 year old (yeah I know, it's been THAT long) but I wonder, if I hadn't of figured all this out now, when would it have happened? I mean, I know I'm always going to be this immature, silly, over sensitive little girl, some times I feel as though I'm still 10 years old, but if I don't start growing up now, when will it happen? It's time to buckle down and start thinking about my future, what I want to do and how I'm going to do it. University is a big step, but if we don't move up and out, then where will we go?

 Anyway, that's my rant over for today. I've really missed blogging, and I didn't even realise it until I started tapping away at my laptop, who knows, maybe I'm back to stay?

For A Pessimest, I'm Pretty Optimistic (:

Have just been told by my mother that's I'm the biggest pessimest she's ever met (besides herself), so I basicly laughed at her and said, "For a pessimest, I'm pretty optimistic". She just looked at me all weird and said, "Do you have to have an aswer to everything?" I nodded and made my way to my room, where I sat on my bed and opened my blog and started blogging.

So, what to blog about?

Hmmmm, I could tell you about my work expericence which I'm not even sure I've got yet.

Or I could tell you how much I hate my brother and the reasons why.

Or I could tell you what I did in my double music lesson today.

You know what? I'm going to blog about all of them!!

Awesome huh?

Well, Work experience, Probably the most stress a fifteen year old will have to go through. I thought that I had a deffinate placement at a special needs school, which I was really looking forward to going to because I really want to be a primary school teacher. So I phone the lady who said she would give me the placement, but it turns out I need to hand in a coverage letter (what ever that is) and my connections form and even then its not an absulute deffinate that I'll get to go there "/ How annoying please?

So If I don't get it, I'm screwed because I have hardly any time to get another placement sorted!!

This is why my mother was calling me a pessimest because I'm convinced that I won't get it, and she's saying that I will, but I'm not convinced, I never get in anything, so why should this be any different?

Right then, My borther. Well, he was grounded for getting a detention, and he wasn't meant to be aloud out for a whole week. He's gone out tonight with my mother's premission!!

See, if it was me, I would have been grounded for the whole week, no 'buts', 'ifs' or 'ors'.

Not that it makes much of a difference to me because I don't like going out on weeknights, I prefer to stay in and make sure I've got all my homework ready, my bag pack for school and my uniform where I can find it.

But ditzy little matthew doesn't do this, he gets detentions, gets into fights, does nothing around the house and then gets let out to go skating with his friends and doesn't come home till late...and he's only 13!!

Me, I hardly ever get detentions, I never get into fights, I do more than my fair shair around the house and the only time I was aloud out during the weeks was to go out with my boyfriend on friday nights, and now that I'm single again I don't even get to do that, and I'm nearly sixteen for heven's sake!!

Okay, Rant over.

Music, Jake abondend me (much to my missery) and left me to compose the song we're writing on my own, and you know what, I actually progressed, alot. I wrote all the lyrics and I was planning on letting him come up with the music, but you'll never guess (with the help of mrs.B, thanks miss (: ) I finshed the music to the first verse and bridge and I'm now starting on the coures (:

I feel very musical. For once, I feel like my brain is really being put to use, Its amazing!!

So yeah, Enough of my random rambleing, anyone fancy a chat, about anything at all, just drop me a comment and I'll get back to you when ever I can.