Sunday 30 May 2010

Secrets are meant to be told, and Promises are made to be Broken

So this weekend hasn't been as bad as I inntaially thought it would be, you see, I have been pretty much kicked out of my house again and being made to stay at my Father's house until Monday, because apperently Mother Dearest "needs a break" and "he can look after you for a change."
Maybe I wouldn't be so annoyed with this if I had been told to my face, but you see I got it Via text, honestly, the text said

"You are both (meaning me and my brother) staying at dads til Monday, i need a break he can look afta yous for a change."

How loved do I feel please? I guess what annoyed me the most is that my mam and her fiance went to york for the weekend two weeks ago, leaving me and brother behind. So, Yeah, parents need a break once in awhile, they may feel the need to load the kids onto the grandparents or the father or someone, and just go away for a weekend and relax, but you see, my mother and soon to be step-father go away alot, not far, to york, or durham, sometimes wales, but it's been five-six years since me and my brother have been on holiday with our mam (we went on holiday with our dad last year for the first time, but mam just goes with her fiance).

So maybe I sound selfish? I guess I do, but just once, it would be nice to be included in my mother's plans. I know where this is all comming from by the way. Me and my mam had an argument on thuesday, which lasted till thursday, and then we were good up until saturday when she decided to get rid of us.

This is were the title of the blog comes in.
Secrets are meant to be told
Well, the last time me and my mam had a major argument, I went to stay with my dad for a while, and while I was there he told me many things that my mam hadn't told me. Like how she stopped my dad from seeing me and my brother for like 6-8 weeks, and the abusive texts she had sent him, things that I was too young to remember. What hurts the most is that she lied to for all these years, like she always told me that she had never stopped my dad seeing me, and that all the times he hadn't seen me it was all his fault, when in truth, they were just as bad as each other.

Promises are made to be broken
This may seem petty to you, but to me It's a big thing. About a year or so ago my mam and soon to be stepfather went to wales, and they told me about a big Doctor Who musem that they wanted to take me to, because I'm a huge Doctor Who geek ^^
Well, later that day me and my mother were talking and I told her how much I would like to go to the musem, and she promised that sometime after christmas that year that just me and her would to wales and she would take me to the musem. Well she never did, and it hurt me that she broke that promise, because all I really wanted to do was spend a long weekend with just my Mam, because we never really get to do that....

So yeah, That was a pretty pointless rant, but I really wanted to blog about it, because I don't know if I'm just being petty or I do infact have every right to be a little pished off?
So have you ever been lied to, or had an important promise broken?
I know I won't get many answers to my questions, I never really do, but it would be nice if I got a couple of comments :)

anyway
ttfn mes amis (: x

Tuesday 11 May 2010

I REALLY NEED TO STOP DOING THAT

I promise myself that I'm going to blog regually...and then I don't, and then I dissapoint myself ):
silly me
So yeah, how's things fellow bloggers?? I have to tell you, things aren't so great here, but I'm not going to mope about because that never ever gets me anywhere, and I always annoy myself (and others) when I mope.
Instead I will play hours and hours of just dance, because as I found out yesterday, by tiring myself out with physical exercise like dancing like a loonie for hourrrrrrrrrrs I tend to forget what I'm supposed to moping about, untill I go to bed and then I remember, but then I end up worrying myself to sleep, and the next morning I'm too tired to care about anything (:

Can I ask, what do you do to chill yourself out or forget things??
Also, this blog has a special shout out for my good friend Grace, She did something very nice today and it made me smile alot and feel a bit better about what I was moping about (They don't have just dance in school so I couldn't dance myself into a coma). Grace came up to me, hugged me, and gave me a big bar of chocolate, the only thing that was missing was her bed (Don't get the wrong idea, I tend to sleep at Grace's house alot and I have adopted her bed because it's just so damn comfortable) and her iTunes. Then she made me talk about it, and that was good also, because I hadn't really spoke to anyone about it, aside from Lou Lou but then we were outside so I couldn't really break down and tell her everything, and Lou Lou doesn't handle crying very well :P no offence Lou Lou (:

anyway...what are your plans for the rest of this week my dearies??

ttfn mes amis
xx